One man shared their feelings perfectly despite the eminence
of his position now as their new commander. He was unaware of the remarkable
nature of this ability, though he understood it is value and nature through
and through. It cannot be said the young man considered himself to be remarkable
at all. He took this connection with the crew for granted. Perhaps this
fellow-feeling arose from the shared experience of serving under such a
presence like Captain Aubrey, all of them together subject to the same
tremendous authority; melting differences, uniting under the common cause
of command. Whatever the cause, the rapport was an integral part of his
ease as a commander and, in the course of things, the merits of this man
were often overlooked - so natural and convenient did his abilities as
a sailor and leader manifest themselves. The plain fact was that he was
both competent and modest. His background accounted for it, to a
high degree, but not all. There was an accompanying stubbornness too to
sacrifice forthright nature of his youth for mere vanity. He had always
been so completely happy in his work: to be at work, to be with others
competent like himself and fully engaged in an enterprise, to be ever-plodding
towards advancement (plodding though possessed of a combination of outstanding
abilities, exemplary record, and the essential patronage of his Captain).
Though feeling a tinge of the tropical heat today in a scarred face he
sometimes regretted, he was quite flushed with pride from his still rather
recent promotion. Looking at him now someone might easily suppose that
he was trying to look like his mentor, the caster of the shadow that might
so eclipse any man stepping into this place. And, as he took the air in
the same place as Captain Aubrey (for while in his yeoman-like zeal to
avoid as he put it "putting on airs" he continued to mess with the men
in the gunroom, he now walked the holy quarterdeck), he smiled secretly
to himself. Feeling that he was being watched with a sense that all self-conscious
men feel, he turned and saw that it was the Reverend Nathaniel Martin looking
at him with his one good eye and, as the ship heeled obeying the pilot's
commands and the two men swayed and steadied themselves on the undulating
deck, he felt they two shared a secret. He returned the impish nod of the
ship's assistant surgeon (now surgeon pro tem) and, despite his
inborn modesty and a positive dread of anything approaching vanity, as
the Surprise turned heading out to sea he felt a warm glow, a contained
delight that the entire world lay before him and his command, and that
this might be the beginning of an adventure of Captain Tom Pullings.
© 2000 Anthony Patton